Long day and I'm ready, I'm waiting for your call
'Cos I've made up my mind My heart aches with a hunger and the want that you were mine
No I cannot deny
So for one night
is it alright
That I give you..
My heart..my love..my heart
Just for one night My body..my soul
Just for one night My love..my love
For one night..one night..one night
When morning awakes me
Well I know I'll be alone
And I feel I'll be fine
So don't you worry about me I'm not empty on my own
For inside I'm alive
That for one night
it was so right
That I gave you...
My heart..my love..my heart
Just for one night
My body..my soul
Just for one night My love..I loved
For one night..one night..one night
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loves.
girls.
boys.
jennifer beals.
kate walsh.
misha omar.
OKAY..maybe i'm really into women.
television.
my life.
will and grace.
the L word.
frasier.
ER.
grey's anatomy.
coupling.
the nanny.
lost.
sex and the city.
music.
completely emo.
baila morena. Sunday, September 24, 2006
whatever that means.
last night i watched imagine me and you. that r21 movie with piper perabo and lena heady i have never seen lena heady before. but she's gorgeous!!! like a cross between 'the touched by an angel' lady whose name i found out thru www.imdb.com is roma downey and sharon corr
sharon corr + roma downey =
LENA HEADY!!! gorgeous!
heehehe.. yeah im that bored. i actually did research.
anyways yeah my aunts house burnt down. thank god some clothes managed to be saved. and most of all.. thank god.. my aunt signed on for house insurance 2 mths ago. so now they are covered for 80,000bucks! that will really help a lot.
so now everyone is chill.
they are of course at aminah's refugee camp! hahaha.. my other aunts house.
i was there just now to teach tuition. boy i miss living in the refugee camp. i remember how we used to all live there. when we all were waiting for our new houses. 17ppl in one house. 3 families and 2 maids.
today breaking fast liek taht again was fabulous. all noisy and all the laughter. and playing soccer in the house. and then later playing soccer again on the PS2.
cant get memories like that.
so i guess the burnt house really had a silver lining. we're all together for this ramadhan.
alhamdullilah.
--insignificant lies--
10:37 pm
Individual Differences in Classroom Management Reflections 1 Monday, September 18, 2006
Reflections 1 (to be handed in during Tutorial 1 - in the week of 18 Sept)
Question 1 (Please complete this portion before coming to lecture)
a. What does an “inclusive society” mean to you?
It means a society that embraces differences in every member of the society be it mental,physical or emotional differences. It is a society that thinks not of itself but of others as well and it is a society whereby there is still unity and cohesion despite differences between each individual.
b. What is your personal vision of an inclusive society?
My vision of an inclusive society is where each member of society is sympathetic and empathetic to each individual. For example, the situation now is one where not every individual has the desire to sympathise and empathise those who are in need or less abled. They just look upon them in disgust and go to great lengths to avoid such people. It is a society where disabilities and differences in each individual is embraced and not gawked at. Physical abilities become something of a norm and people do not stare anymore. I believe that people with disabilities do not even consider themselves abnormal or disabled so why should we look at them as if they were abnormal or disabled. It is also a society where everyone can express and be who they are freely without facing discrimination or judgement, where there is no scrutiny and long stares but instead there is warmth and care for each individual. For example, there should not be any discrimination just because he/she is of a different race or he/she is a homosexual. They are still humans and are still a part of society. They should be embraced for who they are and not rejected because they are different.
c. What does this vision of an “inclusive society” mean for you as a teacher?
I believe that this vision would eventually bring me to face my first class with students who are different or less abled than others. I welcome this experience as I believe it would be enriching for me as a human being. This however means that I would need to equip myself with the necessary background knowledge and self-reflect on my values and beliefs to mentally, physically and emotionally prepare myself. I would need to learn how to cater to their learning needs and how best I can include them in my lesson by creating activities that they can participate in as well.
Question 2 (to be completed after lecture)
a. How did you react to watching “Sue”? Tell us your thoughts and feelings.
My first thought at watching "Sue" is that I find her to be such an adorable and charming character with a really bright and sincere smile. I know this seems such and odd thought to begin with but I am just completely blown away by the way she has shaped together her whole life despite being not as fortunate as some of us. To be completely honest, I am not sure if I could achieve as much if I were her. Looking at her just makes me feel that my life could be further improved on and that perhaps there is more to life than just the big picture. Sometimes, the little things count for a lot. Just being able to play with the children in the centre makes Sue esctatic. In the video, Sue works folding boxes at the pizza restaurant. She seems contented with her job but she knows that there are bettter things for her out there and she wants to improve herself further. Her drive to improve herself is amazing. She does not blame anyone for being born with the multiple disabilities but yet is cheerful and determined. This puts me to shame as I am reminded of the many times that I blame others or get depressed just because things get a little tough. In a way, watching Sue has allowed me to reflect on certain things that I would normally not think about. She reminds me that life is how we make it out to be and she chooses to make it the best life that she can. She even fell in love in the process. I just hope that I can follow in her example and make my life the best that it can be.
b. Have you met anyone with a disability in Singapore (any type of disability or combination of disabilities) who has achieved a life like Sue’s?
I'm sure there are people in Singapore who has achieved a life like Sue's but sadly I have yet to meet them.
Question 3 (may be completed before or after lecture)
a. What are your views (thoughts and feelings) of including students with disabilities or special needs within mainstream schools in Singapore?
I believe that it would be a tough experience for the teachers in mainstream schools to include students with disabilities or special needs. However, it is not impossible. To me, it is all a matter of choice and passion. If a teacher believes that they can handle such a child, then they would try harder as compared to a teacher who from the start does not believe that they can handle such a child. However, it might not be possible to have too many students with disabilities or special needs in one class. Then things might go out of hand and the teacher might find herself lost and grappling at straws. I believe that teachers need to go for courses or just-in-time training to learn about how to handle students with disabilities and special needs. They also need to be educated on methods of how to include the students in their lessons seamlessly. However, some teachers are not as receptive to such students as others so perhaps it might be more detrimental to the child than the teacher as the student would feel as if they are an outcast as even the teacher finds them a hassle. So in summary, a special needs child or a child with disabilities can be included in mainstream schools but it all depends on many factors and I believe that if the needs of the child are not met in the mainstream school then it is best that the child be taught in a special school as the mainstream school could be detrimental to the child.
b. What are your views (thoughts and feelings) of including students with disabilities/special needs within your own classroom in the future?
I have not really had much experience with students with special needs/disabilities. I have had an experience with a boy with ADHD and Low IQ but only for a short two days back in my contract teaching days. He really tested my patience but I found that I was more patient and understanding than I normally was.
Never in a million years would I have imagined that I could be so understanding or patient for that matter. I had actually answered the same question he kept asking me every ten minutes, "Teacher, I'm a good boy right? You won't tell my mother right, teacher?" with a very patient and kind, "Yes."
I'm not tooting my horn but the point that I'm getting at is that previously I would have protested to having a student with disabilities/special needs in my class because I feel ill-equipped and not patient or understanding enough. However, now after coming across this boy I feel that there is something fulfilling when you interact with such a student. Though it might be trying at times,I find that it is back to the issue of passion. If you are really sincere about teaching a child, it does not matter if he/she was disabled or needed special attention because at the end of the day you just want to teach the child what you can no matter how hard it is. Thus, I personally would be more than welcoming to having a student with special needs/disabilities.
c. In your opinion, are there some disabilities that can be more easily included than others?
As sad as it is, it is a fact in society today that there are some disabilities that are just more easier to handle or approach than others. This is especially so for people with really dibillitating illnesses whereby they are unable to walk, talk or have use of their hands. Such people need special attention and some of us are not as capable of taking care of them. Some disabilities such as hearing impaired or visually impaired are more common and people are more accepting of such disabilities as to people it is not as dibillitating. Many a times we see people cringing at the sight of a man with amputated legs begging at the road side but yet if we see a blind man walking down the street we would not pay him any attention or those who are morally conscious would offer to guide him to his destination. Therefore, it is evident that some disabilities are just considered less of a disability than others and they can be more easily included.
THE END!
--insignificant lies--
11:35 pm
morning. in LT waiting for next lect.
hey hey.. bored as hell. so decided i shall blog. the last time i blogged.. the bugger of my lappy.. actually its my stupidity la.. the wire to my laptop got disconnected thus, my lappy went blank.. and then..nothing! all gone... bugger...
pali's back!!!
my 4 yr old cousin, Zahirah. the girl was lucky to get all the indian features. pretty eh?
any indian features??
heehee.. i think i've got some. too bad i'm not fair!
and just remembered i had this picture. juli's bling birks and my fav sneakers. (im wearing it now)
--insignificant lies--
10:12 am
im sleepy. but ICT essay. Sunday, September 17, 2006
i am so fucking sleepy. and i dont feel like doing anything..
and now i dont feel like blogging. catch u later blog.
nurul is keeping me company tonight. our so called essay tryst together..
cheerio.
--insignificant lies--
3:07 am
late night ramblings. and i didnt realise how much i miss u. Thursday, September 14, 2006
mornign morning.
my stomach is churning. doing a nice tumble dry. so how much u think i will lose? nah not much.
i still eat like a cow.
the point is. i am pissed that i cldnt get online today so many mishaps and hindrances.
but i know..i know.. though i should not say this.. i know that.. the real reason i'm pissed is because i dont get to talk to you today.
and thats really why im pissed. because i kind of miss you. im pissed that i kind of miss you..and im pissed that.. im so pathetic as to be pissed that i dont get to talk to you..
sighs.
kai bung tell me to be patient with you. to wait for you. well... i know its not that easy. the question is that..should i even try? many times bitten, i'm a hermit crab. but thanks kai for ur support and optimism.
and pali's finally back. but her luggage is missing. crossing fingers for you p..that it comes soon.
love you all, ferri..
--insignificant lies--
3:18 am
i think i am falling. and i look across, i see everything. Tuesday, September 12, 2006
im fucking pissed with MSN. i cant login. su's already on MSN so she's not affected. but I AM!!! so following in juli's addiction to you tube here is something to cheer me up. my fav scene with jack and karen in 'will and grace' =))my favourites. its the one where jack and karen are doing the commercial on inappropriate office behaviour but karen gets turned on instead cos jack's tongue is "magical" hhahahhaa
just goes to show how boring my life is without MSN thats where i see my chicas...baby.. that lady that i really want to talk to all the time i swear i cant survive without it. i just cant. and i get really frustrated. too frustrated that its almost unhealthy.
pali's suppose to be back by now. but have not got a call from her. i hope nothing happened to the plane or anything like that. it is 9/11/06... and she's coming from NY.. its freaky to think of such things... i really miss her a lot..and its so nice to have my girl back home.. so we can be the way we are..everytime.. anytime =)
just now was at al-ameen. this is like the gazillionth time..i think.. was with the girls again- liza, hana and juli =)) i was so exasperated explaining abt how to walk to marina sq without walking thru city link mall. then this juli brought my hopes up by saying she understood. shook hands some more.. but.... NO!!! she didnt get it. THEY didnt get it. hahahaha.. =)
but yeah sad i had to go early.. my mother.. you know the drill. well i guess i brought this upon myself for screwing up my life. for wasting my days and nights away when i was in AJ. for playing a fool all the way till the end. for not even caring. for being so focused on every other thing except the thing I really had to focus on.. my a-levels.
to get more personal, and to continue on with what khai said about me yeah i do get contented with just the little things. i dont need much more. all i need is a smile. a look, a glance. a wave. a bitchy remark. a silly remark. laughter.
thats enough to make my day. i dont need the tangibles. =)
--insignificant lies--
12:20 am
long day and i'm ready.. Monday, September 11, 2006
*homophobe alert: pictures of HOT lady loving!*
listening to: one night- the corrs
its finally over. the essay. ok not really. references. cover page.citations not done yet.
but i'll get to it eventually.
anyways.....
i am so into this song. i just want one night.
whatever for you ask? maybe i like it.. maybe i really like it when someone loves me too..
who doesnt want that? the optimist me.. thinking one night is enough for everything. enough for me to feel again. enough for you to feel again.
its exciting. im smitten. i really am... but i look at you. and i know. remember the rules. the straight rules. the crooked rules.
well.. my love, my heart. drowns.
good night.
--insignificant lies--
2:57 am
maybe if i cried it might make everything better. Sunday, September 10, 2006
emo-ness in the middle of the night essay assignment still incomplete.
great.
and i feel so many things. and i hope its just a little crush.
because if its not then i dont know where to go from here. do i look in your eyes and tell you everything? or just run screaming at the top of my lungs.
and to me you are wonderful. but no one sees. perhaps i might be the only one.
and people will laugh at me. but i do see. i see everything. your silver lining =))
but i hold back because i know. because i can see everything.
don't make sense? go figure yourself.
--insignificant lies--
3:28 am
maybe its childish and maybe its wrong. Friday, September 08, 2006
good morning again.
was supposed to like meet eanti at 11.00 but postpone..postpone..postpone.. in the end met at 14.00 at CWP. ate at banquet then we ciaoed to go geylang thanks to eanti's trusty bus guide we figured out that we could take 966 to eunos and then switch to bus 21 and that will lend us exactly in front of joo chiat.
i bought a baju kurung!!! YIPEEE!! like finally.. its white..with lotsa gold sequins. will take pic soon.
after that walked around some more and ended up at suntec starbucks @ tower 2 cos the wireless there is free... cos of IMF..show off singapore..everything do for IMF.. flowers lining the pavements la.. hypocrites. only tidy up when ppl are coming. fake-o. like as if we weren't already green enough before that!!!
eanti's bag and the two plasticated tote bags she bought at check! and the fuckingly hot purple couch..YUM! PURPLE POWER!!!
suntec city. walking like bozos.
met juli( AGAIN!! ) at raffles city she wanted to buy birks!! she bought the fuckingly nice bling2 birks freak her!!!
but i still love birks =)) i really love birks! i have three pairs. shall take a photo. one day.
then the three of us took 960 back. after eanti dropped off..things started heating up.. DRAMA one kind!!! the bus stopped at the bus stop opp the bukit panjang police stn then got some commotion in front. i was like wondering what.. thought the bus broke down or something..
BUT NO!! this lady suddenly moved to the back whilst talking on the phone and saying stuff like.. "ya i'm far away from him. moved to the back already." i was like???
then she told us there was a molester!!!!!!! this bangladeshi worker.. apparently he had already tried it on a few girls during the bus ride.. but the last girl shouted and made that commotion. then some guys seperated them. the bus driver had already gotten off and called the police on his handphone..as well as going to the police stn opp we were all at the edge of our seats.. then police cars came.. and throughout this whole time the molester man just sit there and pretend like theres nthing.. stupid sia.. lucky driver is also smart..he shut the doors so we cant go out la..
and juli..being the cutie pie that she is.. ask me to take picture!!!! haha so here it is... police cars with sirens on.. parking at the back of our bus.. the bus driver had opened the boot cover.. thats why we tot the bus had broke down initially...
and u see there at the door..the polce officer getting off the bus.. in front of him is anotehr police officer holding the arrested man! cant really see la.. my papparazzi skills are bad.. so sue me!
and urm... OH MY GOD!! we're shocked.
???
haha nights.
--insignificant lies--
1:22 am
good morning sunshine. Wednesday, September 06, 2006
yo morning. fucking early morning really. its 1.29 am as of now.
pics time!! get excited?cos who reads this blog again?
YESH ITS KATE MOENNIG! (aka shane from L word!) get excited you andro loving ladies! hahaha this is taken from season 4. i like her hair long. they were shooting at vancouver as always =)
seriously i have always liked her hair longer and fuck wish i was as skinny as her. anyways got these pics from www.thelwordonline.com =) are u shane enough today?
and you're wondering what the hell is this? haha my science lab! we're doing solar system and stars now in school. thus the so called sun(big yellow ball) and the planets on sticks! hahaha the bodies u see is my science members- (L-R): Fidz, Nuurul and Eliana
and another angle of our created solar system. when all the planets are aligned! haha what shit!
then just now around nine i met juli again at al ameen but this time cos she wanna pass me her windows in classroom TB i need it for this sem but im too cheapskate to buy it.
then while chatting and fooling around... i took her specs and tried them on. smart? or just plain ugly??
al ameen two nights in a row? killer man to my bowel systems. hahaha
but i really enjoy myself la talking to juli. but today... i did most of the talking.. haha.. :P which perhaps bored juli. but hmm... heck...she still laughed her ass off.(i think?!) she's cute. like belo cute..haha..
anw i'm thru telling ppl they are cute...they always think i want someting more when i so dont give a fuck.
anyways.. i messaged nurul just now to drop a hi. that girl just came home... hahhaa...so lucky that she does not have mornign classes that bugger. the perks of being in ur final year.
cant wait to meet her on friday. =)
and the other nuurul..haha last wednesday gave me the shock of my life. the girl had major life threatening cramps. had to call the ambulance sia. doctor cant find her left ovary thru the ultrasound. so thats pending.. hmmz...hope it will all be good la.
cant believe i ever thought she was a bitch just cos she was from STC. she's really nice and funny.. and silly.. hahaha. :P
well sleep time. math tut and eng tut tmr. plus a short meeting during my break with my grp members for PBL of Ed psych. bugger.
=)its 1.58am now.
--insignificant lies--
1:31 am
my bracelets and everything Tuesday, September 05, 2006
my lappy nameless as of now but there is of course the obligatory jennifer beals pic on the desktop
to town in a cab. a pic of a pic. hahaha.. this was on sunday aftnn. we printed this pic with some pink border once we reached town. and we ate ben and jerrys. choc chip cookie dough + choc fudge brownie= HEAVEN!
in time i look towards everything.
and my red nails tells a different story.
well i only really like putting photos.. hence the above.
nights.
--insignificant lies--
1:00 am
happy teachers day to me!!! and people are leaving blogger.. maybe i should too? Friday, September 01, 2006
the amount of gifts i got last year from my mega class, 2E. so sad couldnt spend tchs day with my first ever form class 3D. really miss those buggers.. =) one of my students celine emailed me in big capital letters happy teachers day! so sweet. my mega class 2E.
my first ever form class, 3D =)))
just came back from al ameen this time with liza and juli.. liza's fren from sec sch and now also in NIE haha yeah..
anyways.. just now was talking to nurul on the way to sch.. =) good stuff. kekek all the way. but something is seriously warped with the world and my cosmic pattern hahaha..was just laughin abt it with nurul.
the ridiculousness of my life really dawns on me
anywyas.. just now sahur at al ameen. sahur! yesh u heard me right tmr i wanna puasa to pay back. only four days actually.. but to be on the safe side just do five la.
and now im gonna go off.. and play my game! dtx! its the game where u play the drums to the song kinda like the one in the arcade. but arcade on u really got a drum to hit but this one use keyboard la.. jadi la.. sebat ajer.damn fun. im working on boulevard of broken dreams now.
and i shld really start thinking about what im gonna write about nurul. she like really wants me to write something about her.. hmmm.. seriously no words can describe... and i dont wanna do her injustice..
